作词 : Finneas O'Connell/Billie Eilish O'Connell
作曲 : Finneas O'Connell/Billie Eilish O'Connell
I'm getting older, I think I'm aging well
I wish someone had told me I'd be doin' this by myself
There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for
But it's different when a stranger's always waitin' at your door
Which is ironic 'cause the strangest thing you seem to want me more than anyone before
(Anyone before)
Too bad they're usually deranged
Last week, I realized that great pity
When I re-tell a story I make everything sound worse
Can't shake the feeling, that I'm just bad at healin'
And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed
Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest, I was still bein' ignored
Grinding for attention, just to get neglection
Now we're estranged
Things I once enjoyed (Ah-ah)
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Some day I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much, until we don't
I'm getting older, I got more on my shoulders
But I'm gettin' better at admittin' when I'm wrong
I'm happier than ever, at least that's my endeavor
To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure
'Cause to be honest, I just wished the word I promised would depend on what I'm givin'
Not on his permission, wasn't my decision to be abused
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for, mm
Some day I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much, until we don't
But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughin'
For anybody askin, I promise I'll be fine
I've had some trauma
Did things I didn't wanna
Was too afraid to tell ya
But now I think it's time